Of pain I never knew


I got scared for a moment.

The day before, my lower back was already slightly hurting me. As night was falling, the pain gradually grew. I could still move about, just was not comfortable. The night before I fell asleep, I kept on rolling on the bed trying to find a comfortable spot.

I got up in the middle of the night adjusting my position. Sleeping on the side did not work, sleeping on my back was still uncomfortable, putting a pillow to support my lower back did not to the job either. Was tired but at the same time trying to fall back to sleep.

The next time I woke up, it was already 5am. Tried to move about and see if the condition has gotten any better. It was the opposite. I was paralysed, almost. At anytime I tried to move my left lower body, the strain is there. It is as if the muscle tendon is about to break. There I was thinking to myself, am I going to be bedridden the whole day? Who can help me at a time like this and at that time? I need and can only help myself.

Trying not to have nervous breakdown, I remembered that I have a medication for pain. I was thinking where did I put it as I was getting out of bed.

It was challenging. I tried to get up straight, that was a not gonna happen the moment I tried to get up straight. Moving my left leg was a struggle, could not wiggle myself out of bed. I slowly turn to my right side and slowly glide out of bed. Bending was not an option. Luckily my closet is not far away from my bed and I have water bottle just beside the bed.

Googled quickly the medication name and there’s muscle pain mentioned. Took that and waited for awhile. Slowly the pain subsided. Then I heard my flatmate came back from work. Messaged her if she would have any medication for me to apply. Luckily by then I could already get up and walk straight. Didn’t have to crawl out of my room to get the medication. The first medication work wonders to me. Proceeded to apply the cream and went back to bed to catch more sleep. What an ordeal to begin my morning. Had a fright there.

This time when I woke up, I could stretch more, still trying not to go to the full extend in case something happens. Still a bit of pain left. Thinking should I go to the doctor to check it out since I need to go to work the next day. I just let it be and observe how the condition will be. Decided the head to the mall to grab lunch as well as get some muscle relieve medication.

Spent my time at The Cheesecake Factory as they have the lunch menu. Portion size is still possible for me to finish it up.

Got their famous meatloaf. Boy, it was so salty, especially to me. The only saving grace is that I have a plain ice back tea. Ordered a piece of cake as well.

Then I got sugar overload. First salt, now sugar. Health risk going off the roof in 1 day.

Ever since I took the oral medication for the muscle pain or just a simple anti-inflammatory painkiller, the pain was at bay throughout the day.

I had a feeling that my period will be coming soon, this and also according to my calendar. True enough, my gut feeling became a reality. It then came to my mind if my lower back pain was associated with my period. However in my history, I have not experience any pain nor excruciating pain like this ever. Discomfort at the abdominal section is normal, but not pain, and not pain on just 1 section of the body. Even as I am typing now when the night is about the cross over, that slight yet significant pain with discomfort is still there. If the pain has something to do with my monthly cycle, this is going to be the start of my monthly agonising womanhood.

Now for something lighthearted to move away from the pain. As mentioned for story time there are 2 highlights, let me tell you the 2nd highlight.

So I was at the mall earlier today. As I was exiting the mall to catch my ride back, there was this guy suddenly strike up a conversation and here’s how it went.

👦🏽: Are you from France?
👧🏻: [Turns to the side to see who is it. Thinking if she knows him] No
👦🏽: [Pause then ask] Are you living here?
👧🏻: Yes
👦🏽: Can I add you on Facebook to be friends?
👧🏻: [Shakes head while giving a small courteous smile and walking out of the mall. After exiting to the parking area, looked around to see if the guy followed.]

What is this random conversation?! I wasn’t on a leisure walk. I was walking really fast like rushing for time kind of walk. Still, what?! Anyhow, that was an interesting 5 – 10 seconds encounter.

Till then, stay sane!

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