Craving for content

Every morning when I wake up, the first thing that I reach out for is my phone. Not to start scrolling social media apps but to check on what notifications I have because I put my phone on DND (do not disturb) mode. After that I will reach out for my Switch to get the day started for Animal Crossing ACNH. Then my whole day will be just finidng any live streams that I’ve missed or to see anyone that I follow is having any live streams going on. Yes, it’s all about ACNH ever since my obsession start.

I tend to find myself hoping that there will be some kind of content from the people I follow everyday. Here I am wanting to consume others’ content everyday, waiting and searching for them, yet I do not produce any. This got my thinking that I am not making any effort to execute the ideas I have in my head. I am just wishing it would happen with super minimal effort. Of course that’s not how things work. You gotta make effort in order to reap its rewards. You reap what you sow. While I am wishing to be able to create some sort of content and ideas I got inside my head, I am just procrastinating.

Consistency is what I am lacking. I don’t think I have even reach to any level of feeling burnout, not even the tip of the iceberg of it. The only thing I am consistent so far is playing the game everyday for 3.5 weeks now. There is always one thing that I can highlight and eleborate further. Simple things can make my head run wild with thoughts and ideas. Catching that train of thought to pen them down is the challenge. Once the thought has passed, I can’t recall much of it. Should I challenge myself by laying down a plan?

I DON’T think I should do that as I would not stick to it. The reason is there is no end goal reward for me. Like yes, I could think that I am being productive with my time, having some content going on, exercising my skill and in a way improving. Yet, that is still not enough drive for me to do so. I know myself. I know that I am going to be on fire momentarily, after that it will die down then the whole cycle repeats itself.

Till then, stay sane ~ !