Of pain I never knew


I got scared for a moment.

The day before, my lower back was already slightly hurting me. As night was falling, the pain gradually grew. I could still move about, just was not comfortable. The night before I fell asleep, I kept on rolling on the bed trying to find a comfortable spot.

I got up in the middle of the night adjusting my position. Sleeping on the side did not work, sleeping on my back was still uncomfortable, putting a pillow to support my lower back did not to the job either. Was tired but at the same time trying to fall back to sleep.

The next time I woke up, it was already 5am. Tried to move about and see if the condition has gotten any better. It was the opposite. I was paralysed, almost. At anytime I tried to move my left lower body, the strain is there. It is as if the muscle tendon is about to break. There I was thinking to myself, am I going to be bedridden the whole day? Who can help me at a time like this and at that time? I need and can only help myself.

Trying not to have nervous breakdown, I remembered that I have a medication for pain. I was thinking where did I put it as I was getting out of bed.

It was challenging. I tried to get up straight, that was a not gonna happen the moment I tried to get up straight. Moving my left leg was a struggle, could not wiggle myself out of bed. I slowly turn to my right side and slowly glide out of bed. Bending was not an option. Luckily my closet is not far away from my bed and I have water bottle just beside the bed.

Googled quickly the medication name and there’s muscle pain mentioned. Took that and waited for awhile. Slowly the pain subsided. Then I heard my flatmate came back from work. Messaged her if she would have any medication for me to apply. Luckily by then I could already get up and walk straight. Didn’t have to crawl out of my room to get the medication. The first medication work wonders to me. Proceeded to apply the cream and went back to bed to catch more sleep. What an ordeal to begin my morning. Had a fright there.

This time when I woke up, I could stretch more, still trying not to go to the full extend in case something happens. Still a bit of pain left. Thinking should I go to the doctor to check it out since I need to go to work the next day. I just let it be and observe how the condition will be. Decided the head to the mall to grab lunch as well as get some muscle relieve medication.

Spent my time at The Cheesecake Factory as they have the lunch menu. Portion size is still possible for me to finish it up.

Got their famous meatloaf. Boy, it was so salty, especially to me. The only saving grace is that I have a plain ice back tea. Ordered a piece of cake as well.

Then I got sugar overload. First salt, now sugar. Health risk going off the roof in 1 day.

Ever since I took the oral medication for the muscle pain or just a simple anti-inflammatory painkiller, the pain was at bay throughout the day.

I had a feeling that my period will be coming soon, this and also according to my calendar. True enough, my gut feeling became a reality. It then came to my mind if my lower back pain was associated with my period. However in my history, I have not experience any pain nor excruciating pain like this ever. Discomfort at the abdominal section is normal, but not pain, and not pain on just 1 section of the body. Even as I am typing now when the night is about the cross over, that slight yet significant pain with discomfort is still there. If the pain has something to do with my monthly cycle, this is going to be the start of my monthly agonising womanhood.

Now for something lighthearted to move away from the pain. As mentioned for story time there are 2 highlights, let me tell you the 2nd highlight.

So I was at the mall earlier today. As I was exiting the mall to catch my ride back, there was this guy suddenly strike up a conversation and here’s how it went.

👦🏽: Are you from France?
👧🏻: [Turns to the side to see who is it. Thinking if she knows him] No
👦🏽: [Pause then ask] Are you living here?
👧🏻: Yes
👦🏽: Can I add you on Facebook to be friends?
👧🏻: [Shakes head while giving a small courteous smile and walking out of the mall. After exiting to the parking area, looked around to see if the guy followed.]

What is this random conversation?! I wasn’t on a leisure walk. I was walking really fast like rushing for time kind of walk. Still, what?! Anyhow, that was an interesting 5 – 10 seconds encounter.

Till then, stay sane!

14 hours of hibernation later


Spent the last 14 hours or so to catch up on my sleep. I was not knocked out for 14 hours straight, wish sometimes I could that. Woke up in between every 6 – 8 hours of sleep to get a reality check. What comes next is taking a few more hours (6 hours) to get out of the hibernation frazzle.

The disorientation is real. Okay, my case is not that serious. I still know where I am, what bed I woke up in, what I am, and what time of the day it is (because I check my phone the first thing I wake up to know the time and day).

Now I am back to figure out what to do with my day. I have 2 travelog to get started with. That means 2 blog posts too. Also, I am thinking to get back to my Faceless collection. Got new yarns that have been sitting in my closet for the past few months. Need to clear out my closet too – 1 clothes section, 1 shopping items section.

Been going on a spending spree for the past 2 months. Gosh, after a mental calculation on the amount spent, I am amazed at how much of being bored costs me. BIG TIME! So much for not spending until Christmas. I really need to just stay at home and avoid bringing my credit card out. I am on my way of materialising my bimbo-ness.


I totally can’t keep up with 2 postings every alternate days. Gonna have it now with 2 days gap instead. One of the reason is to accommodate with my travels. Ya ya, excuses. Whatever.

When my sanity is slowly slipping away, so does the usage of my credit card. I have ran out of occasions to get myself presents. I even have my Christmas and New Years presents waiting for me in the paper bag all wrapped up. Are there any more occasions or days for me to commamorate?

Till then, stay sane!

Everybody has their dream life


People tells me that that is the life that they want, so let them be. It just doesn’t sits well with me. I might be a bit judge-y about this, but I am still trying not to judge people’s choice of life. I could just state that I do not CONDEMN the choice, yet I do not condone it.

I would not choose this for myself. What am I talking about? There should be more than just money in a relationship. I am talking about exclusive relationship. The priority choice for a life partner for me would not be the level of financial capability.

I get so angry when I think about this and the anger escalates as I type this out. I very much disagree when girls especially searching for their significant other based on their wealth first. It angers me so much when I hear ‘He is not rich’, ‘My salary is almost the same as his’, ‘He is stingy with his money or he is not willing to spend money on me when his earning is higher than average’. Seriously, is it just me being irked with these kind of thinking or it is just something normal for such request/remarks?

I know that girls will like/love to have a person they can depend on, to have somebody to provide for them, living the lavish life, and so on. But does it mean to do whatever it takes to get a person to do it of them? Why rely on a person to do it when they themselves can work on their own to achieve it as well? If a person of their liking do come along the way, wouldn’t it be much better when 2 people are in better financial status?

To be 100% financially dependent on another person is kinda risky. So many what ifs come into my mind. I’m sure you can think of some at the top of your head. Just the usual what ifs are already enough for you to think again how much we can not control what is bound to happen in the future. Well, I am done ranting here. One question.

Does the person need to at a certain financial threshold crucial for you to even consider to go out with?

Till then, stay sane!

Home Girl Still Got Game


“Hey, wanna hangout today?”

“Sure! Let’s meet up when the shops are opened?”

“Alright. See ya then.”

Ping and Pebbles met to have brunch with a breakfast menu. Ping mentioned that she wanted to check out some crossbody bags from K shop as it was in the price range for Ping to splurged on. After getting brunch, Ping and Pebbles headed to the shop. While browsing and checking out the prices on some of the bags that peaked Ping’s interest, Pebbles suggested to walk across the street to check out C shop instead.

“Probably you can find something similar with a better quality and brand name.”

“This is the kind of price ranged that I can just grab and go with a peace of mind” said Ping while pointing at the bag she has set her eyes on. “But we still can check out what they have over there.”

“Okay, will get only the items that are on sale” Ping added while walking over to C shop.

Of course that was not the case. The items that were on sale did not interest Ping one bit. While looking around the store to see if there is anything else that looks good, Billy, the sales person came to assist.

When being in a land that hosts different kind of people in terms of colour and accents, it is hard to avoid one simple question, in which Billy asked.

“Where are you from?”

There is always confusion when it comes to nationality and ethnic background. All 3 of them know this very well. As small talks continue, Pebbles found a bag for Ping. As for the price, it is well within Ping’s desired range. However, Ping was not feeling the bag. It was not calling out to her. This is one principle that Ping goes by in order not to regret a purchase or have an impulsive purchase. Slowly Pebbles was trying to convince Ping to change the strap to have a fresh outlook on the bag. Slowly but surely as Ping was looking into the mirror, she was feeling the bag. She kept changing the strap back and forth to see how much the bag is speaking to her. By the time Billy was done attending another patron, Ping was almost set in her mind to get the bag.

Billy too suggested to change the strap in which both Ping and Pebbles told him that they have done so. The only concern now is how much would that additional strap cost since it was a stand alone item. Ping was in another dilemma upon hearing the price. There goes another round of contemplating.

Billy by now was already asking how is the working schedule like for Ping and Pebbles after learning the nature of their jobs. Billy proposed to hang out some time when all of them are not working. Being courteous, Ping and Pebbles did not reject the idea.

Somehow between wrapping the bag up and paying, Billy managed to get his number saved in Ping’s phone. It was not done in a creepy or forceful way. But Ping did noticed how it went down. With the phone constantly on Ping’s hand, while handing over the credit card, Billy was there repeatedly saying softly “Take down my number’.

After all said and done, the only number that was given out was Billy’s and Ping did not plan to do anything with it. Ping and Pebbles left the shop with a gleeful heart due to the purchase and the size of the paper bag that housed the gift box that Pebbles requested for to put the bag in to look like a present.

While they were in another retail shop, only then Ping realised that she could have gotten a discount from C shop from her discount card since it was a full-priced item. She was beating herself on this while thinking how much she could have saved. She was then told that probably she still could get the discount as they would just need to void the existing transaction and redo the transaction. Ping and Pebbles left the shop and went back to find if Billy is still there to help them out, well, more like helping Ping out. Ping did not mind if it can not be done. After all she was the one who did not remember to even ask about the discount.

Billy stepped away for a moment. He came back with some good news. The discount can be given, however the process to do so will be lengthy as it will go through multiple layer of approval in order to void the existing transaction. Billy suggested to meet during his lunch break to give back the discounted amount. Ping and Pebbles were confused as to how will the refund be made during lunch break since it was paid by card. Surely Billy would need the machine and the card to void the transaction.

Nonetheless, all of them agreed to meet up later. This time Ping had to give her number for Billy to contact her later. Ping and Pebbles left the shop and continued their shopping. As they were discussing the possibility of how this refund was going to work, Pebbles mentioned that maybe if Billy would give back in cash, most probably it would be from his own pocket.

As the time was drawing near to the meet up time, Pebbles asked if Billy had contacted her. Although Ping’s phone was not on silent, she did not hear any phone notification sound or ring. Just as she pulled out her phone, she saw a messaged that was delivered to her a minute ago. It is not good to take up the break time of others. Ping and Pebbles settled their affairs at the cashier and proceed to find Billy.

As expected, Billy handed over a small envelope containing the cash amounted to the supposed discount. Further questioning on the process of the refund was done to understand better as Ping could not accept the cash after learning that it is not from the shop, but from Billy himself.

“It was my fault for not asking if you have the discount card. It is my job to know. Keep the money.”

There was a bit of going back and forth with the envelope. Ping was just trying if she could get the discount but was totally fine if it can not be done. Billy was questioning Ping as to why she did not want to accept the money.

Ping came up with a solution. She will hold on to the money first until the void transaction is done, in which it will take about 2 weeks, then she will return the money to Billy.

Now that this situation is sort of settled, the 3 of them are stuck in an awkward moment. There we have Billy having his meal while Ping and Pebbles could not just leave after Billy has helped Ping. They continued with more small talks. This time, the small talks have gone a bit on a deeper level. Questions about how long do you plan to stay in the country, how long have you been with the job, what do you do on your free time or time off work, and so on were blatantly put out. These are just normal conversational catalyst. Then came a shocker question that pretty much revealed a lot.

“How does marriage works from where you are from?”

Ping and Pebbles were trying to process the question as it is complicated to explain when it involves the national faith of the country. Pebbles explained that there is no issue if it is same faith marriage or interfaith marriage as long as either party is not of the nation’s official faith. It gets complicated if the interfaith marriage is of the official faith. That is when the other party is not of that faith will need to convert regardless in order to have their marriage registered in the country. Billy was taken aback slightly as this does not apply to his country. It is the same for interfaith and of same faith. The elephant in the room was now out of the room. More awkward moment.

Pebbles was really helping Ping a lot to break these awkward moments as she continued to handled the questions. At one point, there were quite a number of people trying to get passed Pebbles chair as she was sitting in the middle of the walkway at the restaurant. Billy offered to switch places since he would have to leave soon to resume work. At that moment, Ping was wondering what is the intention of changing seats since he would then be in the way too. A quick exchange of murmurs and glances happened between Ping and Pebbles where Ping is hinting to Pebbles to help her to get out of this little mess.

Soon it was time. Billy had to leave.

“I hate to leave you guys here and go back to work.”

“Let me know if you need me to get the transaction done.” Said Ping.

Each said their goodbyes and left the scene. Ping and Pebbles did not stay any longer and got their lunch elsewhere.

After coming back home and slowly evaluating the whole situation, even after voiding the transaction, Billy would still need the card and the PIN number in order to proceed with the new transaction.

“How will this story unfolds?” Ping thought as she tries to pin down the incident.

Analytical Intervention


Numbers do not lie.

According to my stats about my blog site, I need to have new post every 2 days. That’s how much attention my blog gets after promoting on Facebook and Twitter.

So should I challenge myself and get a blog post up every 2 days for a month to see if there would be any changes to the viewership? Commitment is not my strong suit.

Should I put out like proper content or just mumbo jumbo that comes into my mind / whatever I feel like putting it here? Actually, why do I need to care about what content to put out? After all, it is MY platform, so whatever. You’ve just wasted 1 minute of your time reading my confusing, self-contradicting head voice. Hah! As if I’d care.

New post every 2 days – challenge accepted!
Till then, stay sane!

It’s good to be back


and FOOD!

The time when I stuffed myself with delicious familiar food. On top of that, they are cheap!!! (compared to how much I spend on food now)

I couldn’t have all the food on my list due to the fact that my stomach is now accustomed to accommodate only 2 normal portion meals a day. So I’ll just get whatever that is available to me.

Pork Noodles with egg

You get to choose noodle of your choice. Served with minced pork balls, pork balls, sliced pork, and pork liver (optional). Freshly cut small red chilli dipped in soy sauce on the side for that extra spicy kick.

I opted out the pork liver even though it is high in iron. I need to dip it in a lot of soy sauce and some red chilli to mask the taste.

Chee Cheong Fun aka Rice Noodle Roll

The rice noodle batter is poured on a white cloth over a streaming tray. You can choose to have char siew (barbecued pork), prawns, or just them mixed. I prefer to have the prawn fillings instead. It is then drenched with this light soy sauce mixture and some chilli mix on the side. This is the kind of chee cheong fun that I like.

Cendol @ Mustafa Cendol

I like the classic cendol: ice, cendol, brown sugar, and coconut milk. Perfect for that hot and humid weather almost all year round.

Fried Mee Hoon + Wild Boar Curry

This seems like a fancy breakfast but the price is about RM7. It is so good. My stomach is rumble just by looking at this picture.

Curry Noodles

Another day, another breakfast.


Can’t pass on toast. Missing out on the eggs.

Penang Laksa

Food from weekly night market. Wanted to get something else but they are still in holiday mood. Another time I guess.

When I’m home, food is well prepared for me. Gotta have them veg, meat, and soup!

Other than food, when I’m back, I gotta breathe in some vitamin Sea.

The serenity listening to the waves breaking is a bliss. A steal in a moment in life.

It will be a while before I’m back to a world of not doing anything and just chill.

Till then, stay sane!